Lyrics Tabitha's Secret - Dear Joan

Dear Joan
I've almost forgotten
The pane in the window
The blue dress in the doorway
Dear Joan
Help me remember
The face I forget
And the traps that I've sprung
I guess I've grown tired
It's just what's expected of me
To tear your heart
From the inside to the outside
You know I was wired
I just couldn't help it
The hundred thousand times I hurt you
(chorus)
Dear Joan I wanted to say
I'm sorry for the screaming last night,
And the nights before
I've wanted more from this
Than anything I've ever known
Dear Joan
Dear Joan
Your face has a brightness
That I've never seen
In the years that I've known you
Dear Joan
I'd pick up the pieces
But some scattered too far
They flew when I kicked them
I know you believed
When I said it was over
You stood by me patiently
Waiting and brooding
So deeply in love
With every face that I've shown
(chorus)
Once I forget
Twice I'm a fool
Three times I wrap
My hands around your neck
(while your sleeping)
(so quietly sleeping)
(sleeping and dreaming)
Dear Joan
Don't walk out the doorway
Because if you did, I believe
I could honestly kill you
(chorus)