Lyrics drop nineteens - kick the tragedy

I think it was the first time I realized I could change the world, or at least change the way my sister hit the clock on every tick just to see what would happen. The time was really flowing by I guess and it's hard to think of the way it might have been or remember really specifically the words and all the rest of it. I was down, more than I'll ever be probably, that has more to do with it altogether. Like the orange trees in the backyard and it's Easter and it just won't end. Fucking Phil, he's off on his board somewhere and I'm just sitting here getting more and more lost with everything. That is the thing about it, it's not as if a cousin had promised something and taken it away. It was like nobody could share my so-called dreams which really meant none of it was happening. And that reach around midnight left just about that, nothing. There's not anything particular about it either and I think that the whole thing gets vaguer every second. But I am too and there's nothing wrong with that. It's even funny when I stop and realize I'm just nineteen, how serious can anything be anyway? Not very.