Lyrics my old regrets. - self doubt

I couldn't sleep tonight
I was thinking of the times
When all I cared was
How to get myself satisfied
But something surely changed
People and the face I
Used to wear instead of letting my real skin bleed
Every place I go meet me as it should
(Rain in the eye or hail in the face)
I hope sunrise won't blind
My dry of crying eyes
So I could barely see the scars of mine

I was searching for the good in me
But I stopped every time i saw something new
I was searching for the good in me
But I was never sure in anything
Now I'm running in circles
Trying to see who I am inside
I don't need any torchlight
Sun will clear all my dark sides

And I'm being so sick and tired
Most of the anything
And I wish lakes were the oceans
So I could get lost in them
Mountains didn't seem so high
Spring days used to be more bright

I was searching for the good in me
But I stopped every time i saw something new
I was searching for the good in me
But I was never sure in anything
Now I'm running in circles
Trying to see who I am inside
I don't need any torchlight
Sun will clear all my dark sides