Lyrics Kaninchen - Man on the Moon

'When was the last time
that you were truly happy,' she said,
'when were we last happy'

the rocket bucked, breaching my eyelids open,
my dreams about the past were worse than my nightmares,
I looked out of the cockpit
the different reflections of light were a kaleidoscope
like an oil slick mirage on an overbearingly warm day back in New York.

'I think I just need to find myself,' I said
I don't know who I am anymore
I don't know what's important to me
anymore'

'Just go, leave, like you always do'
she screamed as she wrestled my clothes into a bag
chucked it into my chest and pushed me out the door
all the while I mumbled to myself
promised that I would return one day

And as I landed, the man on the moon, the smoke evaporated into the atmosphere
and all the video units lit up, first whites then shadow and colour came in
my wife and her new husband smiling at me on their wedding day
'I hope you found yourself honey, I sure found me'
I shouted something violently ineffable in return knowing transmission wasn't two way
and stepped out onto the baron wasteland, nothing on the horizon
no buildings, no hum of late running buses, no aimless people chatter, no you

and it was only in this moment
that I sincerely recognized the purpose of mankind
that as people we only exist as mere particles
our design to react with other molecules
and I looked out, saw no-one and began a desolate scream